I suffer from anxiety disorders. It’s not something I hide, so I thought I would talk a little about my struggle that I go through. At this point in my professional communication class, we have to call the people who have not answered our initial and follow-up emails. I am having a hard time with this.
Everyone who suffers from anxiety is different. For me, I have a hard time communicating with people I don’t know. That’s why I never answer my phone when someone calls me. The only people I talk on the phone with are my family. Anyone else, I will not answer. I don’t know why I am like this: I just feel like I am going to say something wrong. I get so anxious when I have to call anyone to make an appointment. I have to practice what I am going to say countless times before I get on the phone. Though none of that helps. Once I get on the phone, I forget everything I have to tell them.
Through counseling, I have figured out that most of my anxiety stems from the thought of embarrassment. Even though I have never been embarrassed in public, it’s the thought that I could. That’s why it’s taking me so long to get on the phone and call these contacts. Every time I grab my phone to start, I also start to talk myself out of it.
I guess what I am trying to say is that dealing with anxiety is a lot. I am I learning that no matter what, I can push through my anxiety and do it. I think being a part of BEYOND LIMITS has taught me this. That no matter what is against you, you can overcome it and do anything. So, anyone reading this with anxiety or anything else that may be stopping you, take it from me: it will get better. It may take some time: I’m still learning about overcoming my anxiety. But you will learn how to deal with it and it won’t stop you anymore.